I love you Grandpa.. I love you so much. My greatest memory of you.. WELL I cant pick just one. BUT Id say every time Id rub your head and u'd chase me.. I miss that alot.. haha.. It was OUR thing! I miss you telling me stories like they do in old John Wayne movies.. I miss you tellin me I had your SPILLER Nose. I just miss you! I wrote a song on Facebook that I want you to read.. I'll post it up here on your site for you. I love you and Gma so much..
Love always
Your Christmas BBY
Today my grandma has been gone for 13 yrs and i still miss her just like i miss my grandpa and not a day goes by that i dont think abt them and how i wish they were still here.. I LOVE YALL AND MISS YALL
Well today im sitting here thinking about yall.well in 23 more days is christmas and i really aint in the mood to celebrate cause both of yall are gone.I know yall wouldnt want me to sit around and miss yall especilly on that day.cause it is suposse to be a of joy,and happiness. but Ireally dont feel like it.but im going to celabrate it any way.because yall would want me to for the kids.so im going to do it anyways.and i dont know where babygirl is. i worry about her.well im closing for now love yall always.
littlebit
Well today i sit and wonder how i can get through this.But i know that i can because i know you are with me.yesterday was JR's b-day and i know he was missing you.well i know that mom and you r happy.well daddy it has been almost 4 mnths since you left this world and i just want to tell ya that i miss ya very much and i love ya.i dont know how to get through this but im trying one day at a time.you know my dr said i am to young to lose both parents.if he only knew how much he was right.but i promise im going to be fine.well candice is getting married on June 16-2007 and me and Breanna is in it i know you and mom will be watching the wedding in heaven.and she will know yall r there.well i miss yall very much
love littlebit
Well tocay is hard for me.As everyone knows 37 years ago today i was born to Clarence & Deloris Spiller at 6:58 am in Bakerfield California county of Kerns.i weight 7lb 2oz i dont remember how long.But i remembered my dad told me when i was born he ask my mom how much she would take for me and she said joking just one nickle.and he gave her that nickle.and he said i was bought and paid for.well as i said before today is hard cause i know i cant hear them tell me happy b-day.but i know they will always love me.i miss them both very much today.well I just want to say I LOVE both of my parents very much.I LOVE YALL EVERY MUCH.
LOVE YOUR BABY DAUGHTER
LITTLEBIT
It has been three monthes today @ 8.00 pm since you have rested. I cant tell you how I long for just one time I can see you, one time where I can run and give you a hug, one time where I can rub your head, or one time where I can kiss your cheak and tell you I love you... I know you were holding on for me so you could see your Christmas baby... I havent let go yet and it kills me a little everyday.. I couldnt bring myself to say goodbye to you in that hospital when you were here.. Even now I cant... I cant bare life without you... In mind I know your with Jesus, and Grandma.. but my heart dont want to belive it... My heart says your still here on this earth somewhere.. maybe you packed up and moved.. maybe this is all one sick JOKE.. maybe just maybe you will be knocking on my door and say Baby I love you.. And Maybe you will show up at my wedding and still walk me down the isle.. and tell me how beatuiful I look.. Oh its killing me now just writing this.. I cant stop crying... I keep looking at you in the corner of my eye on that sheet of paper knowing ill never get to look into your eyes, or hug you, or kiss your cheek, or even rub your head ever again... I miss you more and more every passing day.. I geuss since its the anniversey of your rest I am like this.. in a way Grandpa I feel guilty.. for not coming down there more often to see you.. and not really spending quialty time with you.. and for that I hope you can forgive me... I hope oneday.. I make you and Grandma Proud of me.. I love you so very much.. and grandma too.. yall both were loving grandparantes and I thank yall for that.. I love yall both..
Love Always Your Christmas Baby,
Candice... Candie
Red is the color of the blood that is running through my veins
Red is the heart that beats when your away
Red is the skyline when its parted
But Blue is what i'll be now that your GONE!!!!
Red And Blue!!!
Grandpa.. this poem is for you.. I decided to write you a little something so that when you visit form time to time like I know you do you can see how much I love you and Miss you... I just cant wait untill I can see you again... oh yeah Happy St. Patties Day... I love You And miss you... Candice...
I remember when grandpa bought me my gutiar and amp.. I was excited.. I told him that I wanted to learn how to play.. then one day he came home and out of the blue there it was.. a small little cream colored electric gutiar with my very own amp... I was jumping up and down!! Grandpa and daddy used to teach me together.. then when id get upset b/c i wasnt doing it right he would tell me" its ok my baby it'll take time".. And Yes i still have it... For the longest time I wanted to sell it.. but for some reason i never did.. I geuss I am sort of attached to it.. b/c thats the only thing I have that My Grandpa gave me... So Grandpa I thank you.. I Remember when everytime I would see him I would rub his bald head for good luck.. man he hated it.. he'd say " Im gonna bend you over my knee and whip you.." Then id run.. and say" Grandpa U got to catch me first.." That was OUR THING.. Im Gonna miss that.. I loved making him mad when I would do that.. But him and I both knew he wasnt gonna whip me.. one time he almost caught me though!! HA HA.. I miss that... I also remember him telling me stories about how Jesse James yes the outlaw was Grandpa's distant cousin.. I forgot how but he used to tell me all the time that that was our realitive.. and he would always tell me he wanted to move to utah and montana b/c of how nice it was up there.. and that he loved it there.. he also told me that I was going with him.. and I would say come on.. whats stopping us.. and he would always just pause and say "I dont know?" But that was my Grandpa all right... But hers me favorite memory... It was when Brad Pasily First came out with his very first CD.. and me Grandpa was listening to the radio.. well that song Me Neither came on and he was just and singing and a danceing and stomping his foot.. if was funny... b/c id never seen him act like that.. and i love it... i loved seeing him just get down and loose like he was.. he told me my baby thats my favorite song.. and everytime it would come on the radio.. or on Cmt he would stomp his feet and just sing and dance.. well at my wedding that song will be played in memory of him.. and im going to dance to it alone like him and I did when we both first heard it... I love you so much Grandpa. And I thank you for bringing me into the world.. and loving me the way you did.. i'll forever miss you...
Love Always,
Your Christmas Baby
Candie
Candice Marie Spiller
